Comfortable Christian?

So it has taken me quite some time to find time out my busy schedule to write about something that really hit a note with me over the holidays. There was this church on a main street, that had their sign all set up for the holiday season and this is what it read: “To Christians-Merry Christmas, To Jews-Happy Hanukah, And to Atheists-Good Luck.” Really? To atheists, Good Luck? That just really hit a nerve with me because all I could think is well aren’t we as Christians supposed to love everyone the same and try to bring people to Christ rather than anger them away? Because I know for dang sure If I were an atheist and I saw that sign I would be offended. We cannot do that, all that proves is that you are judging. You think that you are better; I strongly believe that all and every church should put more effort into reaching out to non believers, the gays, the drug addicts, anything that does not fit in the “Christian” society. Too many churches are just comfortable, comfortable in their routine of seeing the same dedicated people come in for service, but what about the people out there that have never been to a church service, what about the people who have no one? So if pointing fingers is the only thing we do, then what is the point? We need to be focusing on these lost children of God, because they are just that! They ARE children of God- Just like me and just like you, but God doesn’t hold you any higher up because you go to church every Wed and Sunday, no- he loves those lost children as much as he loves a man that has been preaching the word for 30 years. So let us start looking at life a little differently from now on, instead of just saying “Atheists – Good Luck” – Let’s change it to “Atheists welcome with loving hearts and open ears”

Lifes like Surfing

The past couple nights I’ve just been sitting in my bed thinking about the metaphor ” Life is like a rollercoaster”  … And all I could think is ” No, life’s not like a rollercoaster… If anything life’s more like… Surfing, yeah-Surfing!”  It just fits so much better. For example: In life there are times when nothing happens,when nothing goes your way ( When theres a lull [no good waves] ) – Also in life there are times when something seems so very perfect but pulls you down right in the middle,and you can either let it bring you down, or get back up and start fresh on a new one ( Riding a wave,eating it, but getting up again)  – Theres also days when everything just goes extremely smooth, and you can’t wait to go out into the world tomorrow ( Having a super awesome ride session) – There are days where is seems like everyone is trying to overwhelm you, be in your face and drive you crazy ( Trying to surf when it’s really packed) – Or one of my favorites, when you just sit back in life, sit back and look at whats ahead of you, relax and take in all the beauty ( The Line-Up) —- So life can be busy,it can be crazy, it can knock you down and spit you out, but at the same time there is beauty to be seen. There are lessons to learn, and there are memories to make.

Christmas, Do we Remember?

Its coming up to that time of year again. And I just want to remind people early of what this holiday truly represents. The word itself is a sign. It is ChristMas.  The birth of our Saviour Jesus Christ! This year, will be my first year to celebrate this holiday a little differently. Of course we will have the regulars, presents,tree etc. But to do it  differnt we will also have a birthday cake dedicated to that awesome man who saved our lives!  You don’t necessarily have to do the same, But I think It would be awesome if people around the world starting remembering this holiday as a birthday as well. I am so glad that God sent down His only son in human form to come to this world and save us from a terrible fate. He walked this same earth, as you and I walk today without sin. And dies for OUR sins. He didn’t start his ministry til his 30s. The night of His birth is something I plan to celebrate and embrace every Christmas to come. For we wouldn’t have this holiday if it wasnt for Him. How would it feel to be born, knowing you were sent to your death. Knowing what the future held for you. He knew all these things yet he lived His life with a smile, with a helping hand, and with a loving heart!  Lets remember what our Lord did for us everyday, but let us take every Christmas to REALLY show him that we remember.

Not Only Listen,But Do!

Life, Has so many curve balls. So many unexpected paths. I think I’ve run down just about all of them. Some good some… not so good.

There are so many things I can share.

Right now In my life I am at a stage where I sit here and think occasionally ” I can’t believe I didn’t listen to God.” You know those times when you pray and pray and nothing happens? Those are easy to forget. But it’s not so easy to forget those answered prayers that you heard, but choose to not listen to. That was me, about oh, 7 or so months ago. I was living in Oklahoma, I was a single mother. Living at my dads having a min wage job. But I was happy. I had a great relationship with this guy, I was living my life for the Lord. I was going to church, things were GREAT! And then about 9 months into it. There was a shift in my life. I wont go into detail but the ex and I ( my daughters father) went through a custody case. Long story short he flew out to go to court, we ended up reconnected and discussing working things out. Well I prayed and prayed and finally got my answer. God told me to stay where I was, that he wasnt done with me. So I pondered on His answer for a few days. Then I got a phone call from  the ex. He was asking if I was ready to go, he was going to buy my plane ticket. And I told him I said, You know I’m not ready quite yet. So then more days passed. He called again, asked the same thing, only this time I told him ” Yes I’m ready” . So he buys the ticket, I get on the place and as soon as I walk in the front door I felt it. I felt the wrong doing I did by not listening to what God was telling me. And even though our relationship has been more than amazing. I know that I am living in Sin, by living with him and not being married. Not only that but My life outside is miserable. Not job,no friends, no church, nothing. Everything gone. So in being selfish I lost multiple amazing things and now have one, instead of if I would have listened it would have been multiple amazing things and maybe one little thing missing. Day by day since then I try and try to get that guilt away. It doesn’t work.

My point is this: We spend so much time focusing on those unanswered prayers that we sometimes forget about all the glory that has arisen from the answered ones. Think back and ask yourself  ” Where would my life be if God never answered that prayer for me?”

Honestly Your life would probably be a different place. And sometimes the answers are so difficult to accept because you want an answer that you will like. Well guess what, I don’t think you will ever like Gods answers, and that is only because of the simple fact that He knows what we do not. He sees what we can’t. His understanding will never even come close to ours. So we need to just LISTEN and not only listen but DO!

Do what God asks you, Do what God tells you, Do what God expects of you, And Do all these things with a smile on your face and a smile on your heart!

Relationships

Are extremely simple, yet people try to make them out to be one of the most difficult things out there. This sounds silly coming from an 18-year-old, but Ive had so many insights on so many relationships, and for some reason a lot of people come to me for advice. It’s like this, if you for one second have any doubts that your no longer ” feeling ” the relationship your in, then dont be in it. Life’s to short to be unhappy. But if your completely in love and totally happy, then stay in it. If something bad ends up happening like some one cheats, or some one moves, or something, then who cares move on. But at least you know what you felt was real and you spent that whatever period of your time happy. I feel like you should never hold back one single emotion that you feel or something your thinking. A lot of the time in my current relationship, I find my self thinking cheesy little love thoughts that I have too much pride to actually say them, when in the end, it would probably make his day, or he would probably remember it forever. We need to stop holding back and just let go. Be free, and be happy. If your in a relationship were your not happy, get out of it. If you doubt a quality or doubt any uncertainty of being happy with that person, then dont be with them. It’s not math, it’s not science, its basic common sense. Your gut instinct is usually 99% right, I found this out the hard way :/. Stop being scared of being alone, stop being scared that no one could possibly love you from your past. I belive that when we stop worrying and just start living and not looking for relationships that the perfect one will pop into our lives and we will be happy. 

 

Wonderful,Wonderful Worship

The act of worship is a beautiful thing. A time where everyone can join together and praise the Lord. A time when there is nothing on your mind but your love for Him. Your not thinking about bills, or work, or a fight you had earlier today, No. All that is lifted from your shoulders as you raise your voice in songs for the Lord. I look up, close my eyes , and smile as I sing lyrics like ” There is no one higher , no one greater , no one like our God, there is none more able, Christ Our Saviour, Great and glorious” . There will never come a day where I say ” When will worship be over?” It’s always ” O man, worships already over?” I wish everyday had that same feeling as those 15 minutes of worship every Sunday or Wednesday. People wouldnt yell, people wouldnt frown. We would all smile and be thankful for the day that we are in.

The Lord is great. He is glorious. He is my Saviour.

worship night 11/18/09

My Faith,Stay Strong.

I am constantly battling to keep my faith thick. Daily struggles and people forced in my life make things hard.

 I need you now Lord, I need to see what you see, feel what you feel, and love like you love.

Where do I start, I can not take things back, and you know the words before they even come out of my mouth, so I can not act like my thought are ok as long as I dont speak them, I shouldnt even be thinking in any harsh way. But the pain inside of me makes this a very intense struggle for me, I find myself wanting revenge, thats not right. I find myself looking over my life and wondering “Why?” And only you know, but maybe your saying ” Why, ask Why? ” what kind of life would this be if we knew the answers to everything?  How can I stay strong like you.

 I constantly find myself repeating this quote I heard at church – Man: ” God, how can you forgive me? I have let you down so many times.”   — God: ” No son, you have not let me down, for I am the one that holds you up, you do not hold me up, therefore can not let me down.”  _____ Why is it that things can’t just be as easy as a phrase , or an inspirational quote. Will my heart ever learn to love like yours? Will this bitterness pass from the ones that have bruised my heart. I have put up a wall, not to block others out, but to see who cares enough to climb over it , When will this wall be torn down?

When will I just learn to live and trust, without question? I find there is no place I can hide from you, you are always there. some days you may feel distant but your there. How do you do this, why do you do this ? How can your love be so numerous? How can you love us that have sinned.

 I want this kind of love that you possess. I have it inside of me, you have placed it there. I just need to search and study. I need to search and study myself, but more importantly you. Your word and your ways. I can never be you, your name is above all names, your names is glorious. Your name will forever keep me alive, your name will forever be my strength.

Starting now, I let go of my past, I let go of the memories. I forgive those that have hurt me. I want them in m prayers. I pray for your lost children stuck in the darkness.” You are calling us to lead them back to you “.

 

I thank You for all the glorious and wonderful things you have placed in my life, and this is hard to say, but I thank You for making me go through every hard time in my life, for every tear that has fallen from my eyes, for every break in my heart. For all this things have led me to You.

 

O Dear Faith, Stay Strong !!

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