My Faith,Stay Strong.
I am constantly battling to keep my faith thick. Daily struggles and people forced in my life make things hard.
I need you now Lord, I need to see what you see, feel what you feel, and love like you love.
Where do I start, I can not take things back, and you know the words before they even come out of my mouth, so I can not act like my thought are ok as long as I dont speak them, I shouldnt even be thinking in any harsh way. But the pain inside of me makes this a very intense struggle for me, I find myself wanting revenge, thats not right. I find myself looking over my life and wondering “Why?” And only you know, but maybe your saying ” Why, ask Why? ” what kind of life would this be if we knew the answers to everything? How can I stay strong like you.
I constantly find myself repeating this quote I heard at church – Man: ” God, how can you forgive me? I have let you down so many times.” — God: ” No son, you have not let me down, for I am the one that holds you up, you do not hold me up, therefore can not let me down.” _____ Why is it that things can’t just be as easy as a phrase , or an inspirational quote. Will my heart ever learn to love like yours? Will this bitterness pass from the ones that have bruised my heart. I have put up a wall, not to block others out, but to see who cares enough to climb over it , When will this wall be torn down?
When will I just learn to live and trust, without question? I find there is no place I can hide from you, you are always there. some days you may feel distant but your there. How do you do this, why do you do this ? How can your love be so numerous? How can you love us that have sinned.
I want this kind of love that you possess. I have it inside of me, you have placed it there. I just need to search and study. I need to search and study myself, but more importantly you. Your word and your ways. I can never be you, your name is above all names, your names is glorious. Your name will forever keep me alive, your name will forever be my strength.
Starting now, I let go of my past, I let go of the memories. I forgive those that have hurt me. I want them in m prayers. I pray for your lost children stuck in the darkness.” You are calling us to lead them back to you “.
I thank You for all the glorious and wonderful things you have placed in my life, and this is hard to say, but I thank You for making me go through every hard time in my life, for every tear that has fallen from my eyes, for every break in my heart. For all this things have led me to You.
O Dear Faith, Stay Strong !!
