Life, Has so many curve balls. So many unexpected paths. I think I’ve run down just about all of them. Some good some… not so good.
There are so many things I can share.
Right now In my life I am at a stage where I sit here and think occasionally ” I can’t believe I didn’t listen to God.” You know those times when you pray and pray and nothing happens? Those are easy to forget. But it’s not so easy to forget those answered prayers that you heard, but choose to not listen to. That was me, about oh, 7 or so months ago. I was living in Oklahoma, I was a single mother. Living at my dads having a min wage job. But I was happy. I had a great relationship with this guy, I was living my life for the Lord. I was going to church, things were GREAT! And then about 9 months into it. There was a shift in my life. I wont go into detail but the ex and I ( my daughters father) went through a custody case. Long story short he flew out to go to court, we ended up reconnected and discussing working things out. Well I prayed and prayed and finally got my answer. God told me to stay where I was, that he wasnt done with me. So I pondered on His answer for a few days. Then I got a phone call from the ex. He was asking if I was ready to go, he was going to buy my plane ticket. And I told him I said, You know I’m not ready quite yet. So then more days passed. He called again, asked the same thing, only this time I told him ” Yes I’m ready” . So he buys the ticket, I get on the place and as soon as I walk in the front door I felt it. I felt the wrong doing I did by not listening to what God was telling me. And even though our relationship has been more than amazing. I know that I am living in Sin, by living with him and not being married. Not only that but My life outside is miserable. Not job,no friends, no church, nothing. Everything gone. So in being selfish I lost multiple amazing things and now have one, instead of if I would have listened it would have been multiple amazing things and maybe one little thing missing. Day by day since then I try and try to get that guilt away. It doesn’t work.
My point is this: We spend so much time focusing on those unanswered prayers that we sometimes forget about all the glory that has arisen from the answered ones. Think back and ask yourself ” Where would my life be if God never answered that prayer for me?”
Honestly Your life would probably be a different place. And sometimes the answers are so difficult to accept because you want an answer that you will like. Well guess what, I don’t think you will ever like Gods answers, and that is only because of the simple fact that He knows what we do not. He sees what we can’t. His understanding will never even come close to ours. So we need to just LISTEN and not only listen but DO!
Do what God asks you, Do what God tells you, Do what God expects of you, And Do all these things with a smile on your face and a smile on your heart!
